A Lonely and Frightening Thought: Eric’s Seventh Letter

A circular postmark dates the seventh letter as April 5th, 1989. Eric writes:

Catherine,

It is great to hear from you, as always. I’ve been thinking of you too recently and I almost started a letter. However, my physics lab class doesn’t allow for such frivolous behavior.

Lonely and Frightening Thought, Collage by Catherine Raine 2013
Lonely and Frightening Thought, Collage by Catherine Raine 2013

Yeah, my class really sucks this block, but to answer your questions — yes, I would say that I am happy in my “pleasant by not idyllic existence.” In fact, I’m somewhat sad that I only have another year here after which, I’ll have to enter the “real world” — no more free time and lots of neat people around like the 15 years of school I have had. Of course, if I go to grad school I’ll a have a few more years — sort of a temporary extension. But I know that the Grade School – Junior High – Senior High – College cycle has been completed and from here on, I will have to make a life for myself. Its a somewhat lonely and frightening thought.

Lonely and Frightening Thought, Collage by Catherine Raine 2013
Lonely and Frightening Thought, Collage by Catherine Raine 2013
Lonely and Frightening Thought, Collage by Catherine Raine 2013
Lonely and Frightening Thought, Collage by Catherine Raine 2013
Lonely and Frightening Thought, Collage by Catherine Raine 2013
Lonely and Frightening Thought, Collage by Catherine Raine 2013
Lonely and Frightening Thought, Collage by Catherine Raine 2013
Lonely and Frightening Thought, Collage by Catherine Raine 2013

I was very disturbed to hear that you are unhappy. You are one of the neatest people I have ever known.

Feelings of Alienation, Collage by Catherine Raine, 2013
Feelings of Alienation, Collage by Catherine Raine, 2013

I understand your feelings of alienation — everyone is basically alone and if you choose to explore this reality rather than drown it in social activity or religion, you will only increase the feeling of alienation. It’s worth it though.

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Feelings of Alienation, Collage by Catherine Raine, 2013

Make friends when you can but never forget that you are alone. I care about you a lot but you are still alone. You may fall in love and forget for awhile, but I promise that sooner or later you’ll realize — you are still alone. So is everyone, whether they realize it or not.

Feelings of Alienation, Collage by Catherine Raine, 2013
Feelings of Alienation, Collage by Catherine Raine, 2013

LOVE,

Feelings of Alienation, Collage by Catherine Raine, 2013
Feelings of Alienation, Collage by Catherine Raine, 2013

ERIC

 

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