Category Archives: Photography

Gesture Studies with Windsock Model

Sky Star Pose

Near the beginning of an extended walk last November, I became transfixed by a tall flapping windsock outside a bakery. I ended up taking over seventy pictures of the wind-animated figure, and each one had a different pose. It was like receiving a free art class on the topic of gesture studies!

Smiling with Abandon into the Beyond
Drop Me in the River

It’s astonishing how expressive fabric can be when it composes a long tube for the body, two hollow arms, and a head with strips of black cloth for hair. The different angles of the head and arms as well as various bends in the body’s “spine” gave strong impressions of joy, fatigue, despair, sass, embarrassment, playfulness, surrender, overwhelm, triumph, and humor.

Bliss Float
The Stretch Just After Waking

I managed to reduce the number of pictures by more than half, but I still need to ask viewers’ indulgence for the quantity of images posted here. (Sending a big thank you to Veronica Paloma for her thoughtful comments on these photos when I first posted them on Facebook last fall and for providing ideas for the titles “Bliss Float,” “Cheerleader,” and “Responding to the Latin Beat.”)

Freedom to Be a Willow
Salute to Freedom
Taken Way Aback
Shy Greeting
Overcome by the Giggles
Marching Just Because I Want to March in the Wind
Don’t Underestimate My Biceps Just Because I Am a Windsock. I Will Flex at You Until You Are Convinced!
You Rang?
Fetch Me My Fainting Couch!
Horizontal Rocket Launch
Temporary Lack of Insight
Be Still My Hollow Heart!
Windsock Means Business
My Apologies
Responding to the Call of the Salsa Beat
Fill the Frame with Joy
Awkward Conversation
I Wish I Could Complete This Cartwheel
Defiantly Awkward
Gracious Welcome
This Trampoline Is Awesome!
Blown Back by a Temporary Obstacle

Images of North York and East York

Aga Khan Museum, North York
West Don River, E. T. Seton Park
E. T. Seton Park
Taylor Massey Creek
Wilket Creek Park
Wilket Creek Park
Wilket Creek Park
Wilket Creek Park
Wilket Creek
Neighborhood near Sunnybrook Park


Willow on Don Mills Road
Merrill Bridge Road Park
Merrill Bridge Road Park
Merrill Bridge Road Park
Merrill Bridge Road Park
Merrill Bridge Road Park

Photos of Scarborough, Spring and Summer 2016

Gatineau Trail
Gatineau Trail
Gatineau Trail
Highland Creek
Highland Creek
Near Kennedy and Lawrence
Ashtonbee Road
My front garden, Scarborough
My front garden, Scarborough
My front garden, Scarborough
Gatineau Trail
Gatineau Trail
Centennial College Library, Ashtonbee Campus
Centennial College Library, Ashtonbee Campus
Gatineau Trail
Alley near Kennedy and Eglinton
Footbridge next to Lord Roberts Woods
Footbridge next to Lord Roberts Woods
Gatineau Trail
Scarborough neighborhood
Gatineau Trail
Gatineau Trail
Scarborough neighborhood
Sidewalk on Lebovich Road
Creek near Arsandco Park
Birkdale Ravine
Birkdale Ravine
Lake Ontario at the base of the Doris McCarthy Trail
Lake Ontario at the base of the Doris McCarthy Trail

Found Sculpture Gallery at Humber Bay Park

After lunch with a friend last Monday, I enjoyed a windy walk on the shore of Lake Ontario at Humber Bay Park. Much to my delight, I discovered a spontaneous outdoor gallery on top of a boulder.

IMG_3759 Anonymous artists had created a gathering of small inuksuit sculptures, and I loved how the waves had become co-artists, knocking some sculptures over and leaving others intact.IMG_3778IMG_3764 IMG_3766 IMG_3785 IMG_3786Before I left the boulder gallery, I contributed an inukshuk of my own to say thank you.IMG_3793

Scotland 2015

Pollok Park, Glasgow 2015
Pollok Park, Glasgow 2015
Burrell Collection, Glagow 2015
Burrell Collection, Glagow 2015
Burrell Collection, Glasgow 2015
Burrell Collection, Glasgow 2015
Burrell Collection, Glasgow 2015
Burrell Collection, Glasgow 2015
Merchant City, Glasgow 2015
Merchant City, Glasgow 2015
The Kelpies, Falkirk 2015
The Kelpies, Falkirk 2015
Garden Water Bowl, 2015
Garden Water Bowl, 2015
Garden Water Bowl, 2015
Garden Water Bowl, 2015
New Lanark, 2015
New Lanark, 2015
Capelrig Burn, 2015
Capelrig Burn, 2015
Rouken Glen Park, 2015
Rouken Glen Park, 2015
Rouken Glen Park, 2015
Rouken Glen Park, 2015
Rouken Glen Park, 2015
Rouken Glen Park, 2015
Rouken Glen Park, 2015
Rouken Glen Park, 2015
Rouken Glen Park, 2015
Rouken Glen Park, 2015

Creek to River Adventure in Toronto

When I descended the steps at the beginning of a three-hour trek from Taylor Massey Park to the Don River Valley, a multitude of  surprises awaited me.

Victoria Park Avenue entrance to the park

IMG_6881Along the trail, I discovered green palaces reflected in the creek, a memorial bench wreathed in spontaneous wildflowers, animal sculptures carved from a fallen tree, and the sight of a chipmunk fleeing to its burrow.

"In memory of Joseph Crawford (1956-1995). Never forgotten. Always in our hearts."
“In memory of Joseph Crawford (1956-1995). Never forgotten. Always in our hearts.”


IMG_6950Flowers and chains framed the beauty of the stream, and wavy reflections of tree trunks served as pillars for a temple of nature.



IMG_7016 The first trail marker for the Lower Don appeared after an hour and fifteen minutes of walking. This was exciting because I had never witnessed the transition from Taylor Massey Creek to the Don River before.

The Don River and Canoe Conversation Piece

Much as I love the sheltered flow of a woodland creek, the impact of seeing the waterway expand and deepen in capacity astonished me. My chest expanded, my breath deepened, and I felt freer, bigger, and more open.

IMG_7059IMG_7071Ten minutes into the Lower Don section of the walk, I noticed a short dirt trail leading to a lookout on an elevated bank.  With my camera looped around my wrist, I fell into a reverie while looking at the opaque water and began to daydream about the Missouri River (my home river). Suddenly, a very large pink and white fish jumped high above the surface and made a flamboyant splash upon re-entry.

I was so startled that I almost dropped my camera. However, I wasn’t upset in the least, for it was a privilege to have been shaken up by that feisty fish. Its breathtaking leap made me feel alive and gave me hope for the health of the river.

IMG_7079Tired but refreshed by so much beauty, I continued the journey, noticing a family of geese, graffiti murals at base of soaring bridges, and an artist painting a shimmering river portrait in olive green, brown, and ocher.

IMG_7103Near the end of the hike, I encountered historic Todmorden Mills at the base of a very steep incline up Pottery Road. I had almost reached the top of the hill, panting from exertion and the extreme heat, when the final surprise of the day greeted me: a Dairy Queen right at the summit!

In my personal history of ice-cream consumption, no plain vanilla cone has never tasted as good as the magical one purchased on Pottery Road that afternoon. It was the perfect ending to an adventure made possible by Toronto’s generous creeks, powerful rivers, and unpredictable wildlife.


Haliburton Wolf Sanctuary

A visit to Haliburton Wolf Sanctuary was one of the highlights of a recent family vacation to central Ontario.  We were fortunate to see so many wolves from the observatory last Wednesday because the pack could have decided to hang out elsewhere within their 15-acre enclosure.

My camera passed from hand to hand with new wolf sightings, so this photo and the ones below represent a collaborative effort.

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The Broken Tree of Deer Lick Creek

A trip to Brookbanks Park led me to bifurcating trails, the sight of a hare bounding across an iron footbridge, and the waters of Deer Lick Creek.IMG_4251blogOn the banks of the creek, a giant tree had fallen and snapped in two. The distance between its severed stump and trunk was not great, but the expanse of liquid space between the two jagged ends took my breath away with its beauty.


IMG_4332I loved how the brook filled the void of disconnection and death, blessing an abyss with a measure of peace. As witnesses to brokenness and loss, the slow movement of water, the round stones on the creek bed, and the reflections that animated the skin of the creek comforted me. IMG_4342That tree died, but beauty didn’t die. It just changed. A whole tree, intact, thriving, with glossy leaves is beautiful. But a broken tree with only half of its body still rooted in a muddy bank is gorgeous too. IMG_4322Like Cohen’s cracks that let the light in, the shocking break is an opening for time, change, and water to move — not to take the pain away but to lovingly acknowledge its impact. The broken edges can breathe into that forgiving emptiness, exposing their ache to the kindness of night.IMG_4365IMG_4378

Up All Night in Berlin: April 1990

Photo by Bart Jones, 1990

When the Berlin Wall fell in November of 1989, I had recently arrived at the University of Durham for a junior-year-abroad experience. In April 1990, I flew from England to West Germany to visit my friend Bart, a fellow sociology major from a small college in Missouri. After a few days touring Heidelberg, we took a train to Berlin.

Unprepared for the shortage of rooms in this swelling city, Bart and I had to spend our first night in bunk-beds at the train station’s BonHof mission. My pocket-sized journal (slightly edited for clarity) tells the story of the following day and its endless night, starting with a visit to the remains of the Berlin Wall and ending up in East Germany on the steps of the Berliner Dom.

Photo by Bart Jones, 1990

April 10-11, 1990

Early morning Berlin contains East Germans toting piles of DDR currency, Polish people stockpiling electronic goods, Turkish men selling pineapples and kiwis, and Americans chipping at the Berlin Wall with chisels. A Turkish boy gives Bart and I bits of the wall and then climbs behind it to collect more fragments.

I see an East German flag with its communist sickle as we walk beside the wall from Potsdamer Platz to Tiergarten. Foreigners have spray-painted “Fuck the Poll Tax” and “And the Wall Came Tumbling Down” on the vertical concrete. There’s a Roosevelt quotation about glorious victory in neon orange, and someone has crossed out Gorbachev in “Thank-you, Gorbachev” and replaced it with Reagan’s name.

Photo by Bart Jones, 1990

After shuddering at the sight of Hitler’s bunker, Bart and I duck through a hole in the wall and attract some negative attention from an East German guard, who barks “Raus!” As he approaches on his motor bike, scattering the Americans along that part of the wall, it suddenly seems a good time to go admire the Brandenberg Gate. Afterwards, as we walk east along Unter den Linden, we see Soviet tanks by their embassy and a muscular Russian soldier on top of one of them.

Photo by Bart Jones, 1990

The monument with gold Germania on top attracts us, so we climb it, first looking at the mosaic on the middle of the column. Once we recover from the vertigo caused by climbing so many narrow steps, we take in the panorama of Berlin at the very top. Then we clomp down and Bart goes off to the bathroom, leaving me on the steps to comb my hair and play with the ants in the sun.

As we pass statues of Goethe and Bismarck, I start to worry aloud about where we are going to sleep that night. So Bart goes into a phone booth to call an acquaintance who is living in Berlin. Maybe we can sleep on his floor. Surely he knows how desperately crowded the city is and take pity on us.

While Bart is trying to secure shelter, I wait on a nearby bench. Suddenly, an agitated American matron in a multicolored Day-Glo jacket comes out of another phone booth and gestures at me wildly. She shouts, “Do . . . YOU . . . speak  . . . ENG . . . lish?”

Eager to  help, I say “Yes, I do” and go over to her booth. She hands me the receiver and commands: “Tell . . .  HIM . . . the . . . po . . . LICE . . . have . . . TAK . . . en . . . a . . . WAY . . . my . . . CAR!!!”

So I take the phone and obediently repeat, “The police have taken away her car.” Laughing and mad at the same time, she yells, “No, not in English! In German!”

The story of my mishap cheered Bart up a little bit, but he was shaken by his friend’s refusal to host us. Eventually we had to just stay up all night, roving from McDonald’s (where we saw other homeless wretches like us), to Burger King, back to McDonald’s, then to the underground and finally the bus. We bought milk, hot chocolate, and small packets of fries to give us the temporary right to stay in the restaurants.

The moment we accepted our sorry condition, we started laughing on a bench outside Kaiser William’s church. Our plight was so hilariously dire that I lifted my legs straight out in front of me, shrugging with my whole body. We considered what we would do for a bed. Sex? Work? Anything. A drunk man lunged at Bart and I. We attracted crazy men, forlorn Poles, and troubles.

The only sleep we got that night was from one thirty to three thirty on the top deck of a bus. We ended up all the way over on the western edge of Berlin, bouncing over cobblestones and deserted roads, while I tried to keep my head on Bart’s shoulder. We had no idea where we were when the bus officials forced us off, shouting “Raus!” and banging on the hand rail leading to the top level. We were spinning into utter darkness without any orientation, comfort, or security. Waiting at the bus stop were three African men who remarked on us dryly in an unknown language.

At four o’clock in the morning, we clambered back on another bus. We rode back into the the city, entering a morning world hidden from tourists, the routine of commuters before sunrise. Lonely and shapeless, they waited by the stops in the cold, sleeping on the U-Bahn after they boarded. Watching them loll in their seats, I felt sympathy for sleepy, vulnerable humanity. I wanted to give them all a big blanket.

Bart used his military ID to get on the underground, but I rode illegally and felt guilty. Masses of people were going to work before six in the morning. At an S-Bahn station, I tried to freeze the scene in memory —  the sun not yet risen, people in dark jackets gathering on the platform, smoking, yawning. They get on the train and slump over, not caring to impress, stable in the aftermath of war, just riding a train without fanfare.

I welcomed the sunrise with profound relief, and my gratitude for the dusky, snowy dawn made it all the more beautiful. Around seven, after purchasing some chocolate and a croissant (silly me saying “oui” to the lady), we took the U-Bahn to the one East German underground station that is open to the West. The route gave us a view of the East German part of the U-Bahn which had lain in disuse since the war. Bomb damage was still evident, making the empty station booths looked haunted. It was something out of a childhood nightmare — endless empty corridors, dusty and lost.  I felt like a refugee.

We rose and went up the stairs to the exit, emerging into a 1950’s world as we joined a stream of people going to East Berlin. Waiting to present our documents, we stood in a corner eating croissants and chocolate, me getting crumbs in my hair. Then we reached passport control, where I paid the ritual 5 marks. (In the past, an American would have had to purchase 25 East German marks and spend them in East Berlin). The line moved quickly. Soon we passed through another maze (like a haunted house, only lit), got our day passes checked, and Lo! we were in the East. Exhausted, we stepped out into the cold morning.

Since most of the museums didn’t open until ten, we wandered around the shopping area for awhile. We studied shop displays that seemed out of date, contrived, sorrowful, the dresses like relics from an old Sears catalog. Why did the shops make me sad? Maybe it was their emptiness, lack of color.

Spacious East, room to be alone because the people are not shopping. Yet there was a Bigfoot jeep on display, reminding Bart uncomfortably of his Ozark hometown, where masculine egos demand such rugged vehicles. People gathered round to stare at the monstrous four-wheeled beast.

We then turned toward the big glass train station, which looked elegantly Victorian from a distance but up-close seemed militaristic, iron-girded and massive. We went lower and lower into the underground, seeking warmth. Shivering, we made a huddle on a high wooden bench, waiting until nine thirty when we could emerge in search of tea.

After about forty minutes, we left our temporary burrow and crossed the square again by the Bigfoot. We went to one shop, but it had no tea. At the next one, our entrance changed the atmosphere. The waiter turned with a smile on his face as the door opened, but when he saw we were Westerners, his happy blue eyes went cold. All the East Germans seated in smoky camaraderie and warmth stared at us, so we left without ordering anything. It was an unhappy awakening for me that people could tell I was Western just by the way I dressed. I had always prided myself on my poor fashion sense, but Bart pointed out how expensive my purple raincoat looked and the confident message my bright yellow scarf sent.

Photo by Bart Jones, 1990

We sat outside in the cold once more, lamenting our outcast state. We were very cold from the unfriendly treatment and the weather, but a grocery store offered diversion until the museums opened. The aisles were huge and the carts incredibly small. Bread was freshly made and lay unwrapped on the shelves. There were no brand names. The few Western items, such as jam and crackers, were priced very high, but the rest were very cheap. Huge sausages, candy, and tins of fruit were available. They wrapped their purchases in blue paper.

Outside, a female employee of the store chased away three young Polish men who were lounging near the entrance. They seemed scared of her — she was quite big and threatening. One tried to bluff and joke with her but the other two were like, “O.K. We’re outta here.”

When ten o’clock finally came, Bart and I walked to the Berliner Dom, where we sat on the steps and ate marzipan. Swooning and unbalanced from lack of sleep, we then toured some of the cathedral (the main part of it wasn’t open). Ornate gilded woodwork impressed us, along with a marble staircase and rich brown marble columns.

Framed photographs on the gray marble walls showed us what Berliner Dom used to look like before the war and then after bombs had struck. The dome smoked. Many days later, this image reappeared in a nightmare. My dream self was looking out the upstairs window of my childhood home in Missouri. The window frame was smoking and I could see the Brandenburg Gate on top of the Lambda Chi fraternity house, all in flames.

Photo by Catherine Raine, 2014

Laundry Meditation

IMG_8548On a washing day, I place the white basket on the patio table, move the line into position, and grab some single socks. As I administer the stability of clothespins, I relish the sun on my face and the breeze that moves the tall thistles and Queen Anne’s lace.

My hands attach the socks, shirts, towels, and pajama bottoms to the line, connecting me to a pre-electric time when the power of the sun was not considered an eccentric alternative to the dryer.

IMG_8549Full of solar gratitude, the pulley and I send the clothing further down the line, deeper into the garden, unfurling my sails for the wind to catch them. I scootch the entire set of washing as far as I can, until the first sock is almost touching the top of the plants. Each time a new garment is pinned, it makes a great sideways launch into the unknown, pennants of the sky meeting green messengers of the earth.

IMG_8561Task finished, I stand on the deck to admire the animated line, smiling at the dance of billowing cloth that the wind creates as it plays with pant legs and flowing hems. As I observe the moving shadows cast on the grass below, I breathe the scent of summer warmth that the laundry will later hold in memory, releasing sunshine on thankful skin.

Magic Door in Kew Gardens, Toronto!

As I was walking through Kew Gardens, the sight of this wee door at the base of a tree astonished me!

IMG_7056Who made the door? And why?

IMG_7068IMG_7048IMG_7062IMG_7064IMG_7045Who arranged the offering of twigs and leaves?

IMG_7039IMG_7084To thank the tree, I placed two quarters on the spontaneous shrine, still marveling at the fairy-tale door.

IMG_0688The story of the magic door evolved thanks to a sighting nearly a year after the first. Astroturf now covered the dirt floor and a new vision of the world outside the door had been created.IMG_0695With a sturdy vehicle, a stone wall, a compass, a sign, and a campfire, this self-sufficient village can weather the challenges of a busy Toronto park.

(Note: a few months ago, I read a newspaper article that solved the mystery! The door serves as a literary backdrop for Henley the Hedgehog, the star of three children’s books by Sharon Douris.)